(the following is poem from my upcoming book "Conversations at my Sister's Dinner Table")
Lost Somewhere
We had the best fights any
Two country girls could ever have
Throwing collard greens and cornbread
Wrestling in the front lawn
Yeah I lied but it was funny
To watch you get in trouble
We smiled after
Thinking about the times we sold mud pies
Climb trees in church dresses
Had to watch TV on our belly for a few days
We laughed hard
When my period came during P.E.
And I told you I was dying
How you managed to fall up stairs
And how that damn cat always sat on top of Tee’s truck
We were pissed together
When my date was an hour late
Drove with the window down
And messed up my hair
When Lillian was on another trip
When we realized nobody gave a shit but us
We went to college
Forgot our tears
Forgot our laughter
Forgot our pain
And grew apart
But now that we’re talking again
Those times really aren’t important
I recently went to a Family Reunion. For years my family could be counted on one hand (okay my niece came so now I use two).
Six. That was the number I could always count on to be there whether I was laughing, crying, or in the words of my sister never acting my age. I mean really if you stop laughing life is just...dull. I was the child in class who could never do a family tree because I had no idea who I came from.
Seventeen. The number of years I was kept from so many pieces of myself. The years of never hearing stories of my grandmother or knowing that my great grandfather had fourteen children!! Years of wondering, is there anyone out there who loves us, remembers us, remembers mama.
Eight. The number of reunions we happen to miss because of some woman who decided that itobviously wasn't important. Nothing she did or does really surprises me. She is just evil or I could branch out and use my expanded vocabulary and say uniquely special.
Two. The number of times I cried when I was there. Happy for the simply fact that I looked over a sea of beautiful black faces in the middle of a banquet and said HI EVERYBODY!! They all said hi back. Wow
Like the poem says, anything prior isn't really that important; the gap has been filled.
I AM A DECEDENT OF JOSEPH HARRISON AND LUNA VENABLE. (my great-grand parents)
Monday, July 23, 2007
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3 comments:
The older I get the larger my family gets and it has nothing to do with DNA. And you're part of that ever increasing tree . . . a flower of a friend and poet!! Love your thoughts and your way!
Your words truly inspire me... A family reunion is something special and for some-one that has never been to one, I felt like I was right there with you. All the tears you cried are pouring down my face and somehow I feel lifted. You have a gift that all should encounter and I salute you because you are the epitomy of life. Your struggle is not your own for I am with you.
Peace and Blessings to you,
Your devine sister,
Mo
Hello my darling,
I'm heading to my family reunion tomorrow. My 2nd, held every 2 years. Until this moment I was dreading the trip - not because of the new cousins I'll discover and the old memories I'll renew - just the drive, 4 hours by myself, though never alone, in an iffy truck to a place I've never been. While folks say it's not the destination but the journey in life in this case it is definitely the destination and you've reminded me the journey will be worth it. So, I choose to think about this trip as absolutely fabulous. There will be no traffic or crabby drivers on the road. Yay, 4 hour drive. Bring it on!
Allegra
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